Discourses-----Day 26
July
7, 1941
Dhirenda was with Sri Sri Thakur. Some couplets were read
out to him at Thakur’s request. Expanding on the thought of one, Thakur said, “We don’t have to worry when the mind
goes down. Wherever the mind may be, its state is bound to change as one
manipulates acts and words. This can be done in flash. It is quite within our
control.”
I
read next the couplet :
‘Put
in action for the Lord
The
zest for sex enjoyment
And
you will taste through that
The
sugar of attachment.”
Sri
Sri Thakur added, “If you
have a feeling of uneasiness in carrying out work for your Ideal, it is to be
understood that some passion in you is left unwilling and uninterested. Real
union has not takes place. And really, I used to have a feeling of intoxication
as in passion—the eyes of passion grow—the engine, a tree in a particular place
; I used to enjoy as though with hungry eyes all around. What a feeling it was
! But it all disappeared when my mother passed away. I have seen a Vaishnav
lady and I have seen a Sadhu like this, but I have not seen any other of their
like. The Vaishnav Lady used to say, ‘He ! He ! She used to fondle me very
much, used to have trance at times ; so normal it was too, swoon—like. It was
not after the dramatic style. A hundred people would weep when she wept, laugh
when she laughed, would run after her when she ran. Sometimes she would play
hide and seek at a tree as though she had been able to locate someone. She
would give up taking food if she understood that I was unified up to that time.
The Sadhu would not eat anything without feeling me first. Neither would he
allow anyone else to eat anything. He would a take a pice or two others would
give him. The rest he left behind ; children would pick it up. What a look he
had in his eyes the day he left the place ! My whole heart flooded. He said,
‘My child ! We shall meet again’.”
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