Discourses-----Day 13
December 7, 1939
It was afternoon. Thakur was talking with a Kirtan singer,
Babuballav
Goswami by name. Thakur said, “Some seed falls on rocks, some among
brambles, and some on good ground. It is the same libido at work. Everything
depends on where it strikes and gets set. Once it gets properly set on a
Sat-Guru, the job is done.”
Pointing to one of us, Thakur said, “You with your digging remarks, if you could use them for
the sake of Ideal, you would be pouring honey into people’s ears. Some weep out
of repentance. If they could do it for Ideal, they would flood many, to put it
mildly. There is no need to curb passion and anger ; rather, the greater they
wax the better. All that is necessary is to regulate them for Ideal’s use. If
they are obliterated, with what can one do the work of Ideal ? And religion too
has its acid test here. ‘I worship daily, I love God ; yet my skill and agility
are not what they should be. I am enjoying an abundance of life.’ What is this
? If I fall into such a plight, I must know that there is something radically
wrong with me. Whether one is looking for wealth or not, wealth is bound to
embrace one who walks in the path of Ideal. Wealth that has service for its
foundation is proof that a man is leading a genuinely religious life. That is
why it has been said in Chitanya
Charitamrita : ‘Wealth and light pervade this world entire. For love that’s
void of riches I have not least desire.’
But one who loves his Ideal in order to attain a certain
position or level, or for the sake of gaining wealth, does not set anywhere. It
is even said, ‘The desire for liberation is the worst of all obsessions.’
Everything settles down if one’s fancy falls upon Ideal. Love for his sake
sprouts in Yaajan. All spheres of the brain become active in Yaajan. Knots and
obsessions built around petty desires gradually work loose.”
After a long discussion Thakur concluded, “There used to be a Bharadwaj
University, Basistha
University, Shandilya University,
etc. These will have to be built up again for the revival of culture,” Sri Sri
Thakur talked a long time to Goswami in this vein. Afterwards Goswami came to
us and said, “I am a religious instructor to thousands. Narrating sacred
literature is my profession. I have seen lots of holy men and pandits. But it
is for the first time that today I have understood the real import of Dharma,
and I know I shall not get again such a guide in my effort for becoming. So I
have decided to take initiation this very day. I have been misinterpreting many
things. Now I shall have the chance to correct them.”
Sri Sri Thakur was sitting on a cane stool under a
thatched shed. Kestoda, Gopalda and others were standing by. All of a sudden
Sri Sri Thakur’s teacher came by. Thakur stood up out of reverence and called
for a chair. The tutor took the chair brought by Gopalda, after which Sri Sri
Thakur resumed his seat.
In
the course of conversation Thakur said, “I used to
meditate excessively. Meditation without activity led to some strange
insensitiveness. It was as though I could feel no sensation, good or bad, happy
or sorrowful. The tremor of life that had been mine left me. I became something
like solid. That was a veritable hell, then I began to put my mind to work, and
then any original condition returned. Children who do not take any interest in
domestic affairs, or who are otherwise not actively engaged suffer also an
impairment of receptivity for studies in their brains. Those who have urged to
give something to their parents are bound to rise. In those who do not do anything
for their parents and family but go about doing things for neighbours some
abnormality has crept in. And over –zealous, excessive sympathy for women
speaks of mere sexual throbbing.”
Sri Sri Thakur asked me, “Did
you do Swastyayani yesterday ?” I answered,
“Yes”. Thakur said of me to someone standing by, “He is unable to beg. He is
quite incapable of it.”
Kestoda
said, “Eight fetters fall off in begging.”
Sri
Sri Thakur : “It
is very true Begging for Ideal builds and expand a man from within.”
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