To love people was my nature right from the childhood- I could
not stand anybody’s sufferings. When I came across a suffering person, I felt
as if I afflicted with it myself. Hence I could not rest content till I
ameliorated his suffering. Formal education, money and manpower-none I had.
Love was the only capital I possessed. With a heart filled with abundant love,
I had set out like an adventurer-never believing anything as impossible. I had
no other way out, except doing well to the human being. I had not even an iota
of doubt and hesitation regarding my capability in this respect. I felt as if
the basic urge of self preservation of my own being had been goading me
irresistibility in the interest of the preservation of all other beings.
Perhaps sensing the state of my helplessness the Supreme Father out of His
bountiful compassion had pointed out to me the inner truth of everything.
Though I did not have much of formal education yet I had acquired enough
knowledge of the all-round well-being of individual and collective life. I had
been able to acquire this knowledge by the grace of the Supreme Father. Talk of
science, literature, scriptures, doctrine, etc. I knew nothing of them. But
what I had observed with my own eyes and through the very same observation
whatever I had been able to realize. I suppose, it had left nothing uncovered.
Whatever I had said was based on my own perception only. So I did not have any
doubt about my sayings. But I felt extremely hurt when I saw in spite of being
aware of all these things you remained unmoved and inert and et an
easy-go-lucky life. But know this for certain, idle gossip I did not like at
all. On your ceaseless striving only lies the solution to sorrows and
sufferings of the people of Bengal, nay, India, nay the World over……. You
could not sense my agony. Otherwise you could not remain confined to your worldly
attachments, verily I say unto you if, at all you want to do justice to your worldly
attachments, better ignore them and to what I say.
My problem during boyhood days was-How to distinguish between
what was good and what was bad. What was good in a particular given condition
might turn out otherwise under different condition. What to do? How to deal
with so many people? What was the way out? These were my problems. Suddenly I
found out in a copy book written as such “Do unto others as you wish to be done
by”. I heaved a great sigh of relief and felt as my feverish temperature
suddenly had lowered down with heavy perspiration. Everything became easy. It
was really very important to learn the art of getting on with the people. Hence
it was a very important aspect of Dharma (Science of Life), because Dharma
dealt with life.
I had not much of bookish knowledge as such. I was not so good student
at school. Right from the days of my childhood, I did not feel like studying,
didn’t find favor with Mother Saraswati (Hindu Goddess of learning), I had not
read Gita. Generally people read Gita at least. I had not even gone through
that. Nevertheless I had read a bit of Kumarnath’s Gita just for the sake of a
glimpse. This was what you may call the extent of my bookish knowledge. Even I
had not read ‘Kathamrita’ of Ramakrishna or any works of Vivekananda. I did not
understand much of the thing nor did I feel it was necessary too. I used to do
what I felt myself. I did not even bother to know what I said whether it
carried any sense. I came to know about this when I first went to Haritakibagan
they used to say-my thoughts were identical with the thoughts of many eminent
persons and about their comments. I used to be surprised.
Nevertheless, whatever I had spoken in very normal and natural
manner, if you followed them or for that matter if you followed me- you would
have realization like me-you could become like me. This much I could emphatically
testify.
Taken From 'Dhritivani', Souvinir of Delhi Satsang Vihar.
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